Current Mood: Zeft

So, my sister didnt pass this year. (again).Not that i blame her or anything.She did her best. I just feel sorry for her and i dont know how on earth is going to go through this whole experience again.

My Graduation Project Supervisor called me a couple of days ago. He wants us to do a presentation infront of some guy from the higher ministry of eduction. He also wants us to deploy our graduation project where it should be working;so that people would make use of it.Sounds great right?

Well Its not.First of all our graduaion project was doomed by many phenomenal events of bad luck and a series of unfortunate events. So it is not any thing near complete and Can not by any means be deployed. Second of all..Deploying the system would mean the team (those available) would gather up and work. That sure brings alot of tiresome memories.
Finally, just copying the project from one computer to another would take not less than 5 days. Thats excluding any improvements to be made on it.Wasting time from 5 to 10 days on the GP in my vacation makes me sick.
Simply Put: I hate my GP and hate the idea of working on it again.

Three Thoughts

1- I saw this big red calculus book accidentally a couple of days ago..and then i had this sudden rush of flashbacks of all the times i had in college..I thought I got over it..I thought I stopped missing it..I think I am wrong..I'm going to hide this calculus book elsewhere.

2- I am on job hunting right now and i just want to remind myself..that its okay if I didnt get what I want right away..Its okay if i started working something I dont like at first..and most of all.."el arza2 beyad Allah"

3- I've been reading a book called "3an el fasad w seneeno" by Fahmy Howaidey. I didn't finish the book.Not that it didn't intrest me.On the contrary,I thought that i should have read it a long time ago(Just like that Pride & Prejudice book) . I found myself asking questions about this country and where are we heading? who is responible for all this corruption? To what degree am I responsible? Is this country that bad? Is there no law in the country that can get back people what they rightly own? Are humans that cheap in the eye of the government?what about the double standards we have dealing with people with power and money so forgivingly and those who have no "dahr yesnedhom" are to be mercilessly punished right away.

It reminded me of a hadeeth by our Prophet (PBUH):

إنما أهلك من كان قبلكم أنهم كانوا إذا سرق منهم الشريف تركوه، وإذا سرق منهم الضعيف أقاموا عليه الحد. وأيم الله لو أن فاطمة بنت محمد سرقت لقطع محمد يدها)

4th of July.

me: ana 7assah enny ha2fel 3eeny w affata7aha w 2aly nafsy 3andy talateen sana

dad: definitely.

me: w a3'ammad 3eeny w affata7aha tany ala2y nafsy arba3een.

dad: That happens too!

me: tab w ba3deen ? :)

dad: you better keep your eyes shut for a while.

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So today, other than being a national vacation in the US, it happened to be my graduation project presentation. It didn't go as expected. Or did it? Anyways..The results came out fine el7amdolellah although there was ALOT of unfairness..There was a wide variation of grades within the group so we couldn't really celebrate..It doesn't matter now..It's over! It's out of my system :D


Graduating has been a an exciting and agonizing phase in my life..Every day for the past month i had both REALLLY BAD days..and REAALLLY HAPPY days..It was hysterical..


Am glad that i survived through college..
Am both excited and scared about what's next
Am having this weird feeling of "ana 7assa enny waraya 7aga"


El7amdolellah!

Tommorow..

isA tomorrow i'll hand in my graduation project. I hate it. I worked very very very hard, although I didn't put my best in it, and i'm very afraid how things are going to end. I have a lot to do yet from now till tomorrow. I need every prayer and every brain cell and every "tawfee2 men Rabbena" as i can get.

Rabbena yostor!

tshamer..

About one year and 7abba keda ago, when tamer went to jail , I thought that the guy just ended his career and the best thing he would hope for is struggling for a come back that nobody cares about..
I thought of him as a hypocryte or atleast that what it seemed to be. I felt this wierd disgust from the guy. Maybe alot of young men do the same as he did..but i hate arguments that start with " ma koll el nass bet3mel keda"
Anyways, I thought that everbody would turn against him. I thought that people ,fans or no fans, would stop listening to him after he lost his credibility. I mean the guy is going to jail for goodness sake.
I was never that wrong in my life (excluding the time i thought interior ministry in Riyadh is a real space ship).

You could forgive the guy..but like him? sympathize with him? get addicted to his songs?think he is a victim of "el nas el 7aqooden el we7sheen"? Fall for his argumenet "ma koll el nass bet3mel keda"? No thanks!

How on earth did he became more famous? More likable? Funnier?and THAT FAST?
and what were these posters all about? I didn't believe that they actually are having this "Wa7shtena" billboard for the guys who is not going to even see it..

I can never comprehend what is happening to the Egyptian mentality.


"w 3eyoon sa7ya te7'ally balha men ardaha" --tshamer

gjoe the gemini.

Okay..i don't really believe in that zodiac thing..but seriously i think i am 2 people..its not just the 2 personalities..the happy-harmless one and the angry-aggressive one..i think this has went too far!

-First, i dont remember half the things i say..we all forget things we've said..but i DRAMATICALLY forget exactly half the things i said..whether they were jokes, gossip, mean comments..anything!! just half of it slips into oblivion.
-Second, I dont have a consistent taste towards things.its not just "am not in the mood for a romantic comedy right now.."..its more of a major strong opinion about something:

Saturday:
my sister: ya gjoe etfragy ba2a 3ala just like heaven..its a really nice movie :)
me: just like heaven eh fel 7arr dah!w kaman eh reese Witherspoon deh...mostafezza awy i can't see her in a romantic comedy, blonde or no blonde..she gets on my nerves(specially her chin)


Tuesday:
my sister: bardo mesh 3ayza teffaragy 3ala just like heaven?
me: alaaaah..aywa ana 3ayza ashoofo awy..enty 3arfa enn reese Witherspoon 7'adet gayzet oscar..begad bravo 3aleeha..
my sister(confused look): u need help sis!

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Friday:
me: i think sunglasses are useless..and they are so overrated..useless luxury..and what's with those glasses that cover up all ur face..so its protecting ur eyes and acts as a sunblock for ur skin coz now u can't afford one coz u wasted all ur money on the glasses?pathetic!

Sunday:
me: ana 7'alass qararat..el wa7ed lazem yeb2a 3ando naddaret shams..begad deh 7aga daroorya geddan..ento mesh shayfeen el shams 3amla ezzay?7'alas hatooly wa7da fe 3eed melady..bass 3ayzaha kebeera 3ashan tal3a mooda..w bardo 3ashan ya3ny tamanaha yeban feeha

(notice i also expressed myself 2 different languages!)

-I always ask the questions "what was i thinking?", "what have i done?", "where was i?","how did i do that?".. apparently..i sometimes turn into a person who misses things up and then the other person suddenly kicks in, wondering about how did it/i/we get there!

-I'm almost always half-sad and half-happy at the same time..If something bad happens..i naturally become all gloomy about it..but i also have to find something that would cheer half-of-me up..and when i'm happy."lazman w 7atman"..addawar 3ala ayy 7aga a2la2 3aleeha ao tedaye2ny

I'm driving me crazy!

Split Of A Second

Watching the ahly's player mohammed sedee2 yesterday..made me remember (not realize) that one's life can be taken in one split of a second. Thank God Rabbena satar and he turned okay. But such incidents make one reset priorities and put alot of things into proportion. Alhamdolellah for one of the greatest blesses in life: life itself.

My Day Before Graduation

If You Have Been On Dee's Blog or Zandy's you would probably know that we are graduated..Or at least we finished our finals..I thought of blogging what i did on the last Day.. Just for the record of it..It was


On The Last Day Before Unofficial graduation:
- I had corn flakes for breakfast, lunch and dinner
-I watched "zawget ragol mohem" for the first time in my life. I cried.(not cried cried..but had a couple of tears)
-I had a phone call on my mobile from Sheen Meem(she asked me too keep her identity anonymous due to..i don't know)She told me she dreamed of telling me that how much she learned from me and that she expects us to have great friendship and that i was an inspiration to her. I was Surely Overwhelmed. I didn't know what to say.She made me very happy!
- I studied a bit for the exam.
- I was about to join my sister to watch friends when my mom came and sat down.Heard a joke.Couldn't take it. and stayed the rest of the day monitoring what we're watching.
- I discussed with H what to wear tomorrow.She recommended a green cardigan that i wear in winter.So I didn't get much help. Its not like am shallow. But i just want a good memory and i want also to say one day,"shoofo mameteko kanet sheek ezzay"..but whatever i'll wear would be outfashioned by the time i have children. So..it doesn't really matter!
- Daydreamt alot..But mostly flashbacks.I spent an hr remembering details of my first day @ college..That day was..one of worst indeed..Not that bad things happened as in the new-guy-in-school movies type of days.But it was a disappointment.it turned out okay though..
- i didn't drink one single cup of coffee!!Im liberated!!
- I paniced at abt 10 pm. Had a time plan and figured that i need at least 30 hrs to finish what i have to do. I only had 24 by then.
- Was on MSN all day long.
-I checked a lot of blogs too..all interesting :)
- Every time my parents pass by they are like "ennahrda a7'er yoom ya oojy..Rabbena ma3aky..arrabty te7'allsy?" me : "isA 7'eer.."


All In All...Im Glad that i have good memories of my college life. I had very good friends whom i want to sincerly keep forever.

el7amdolellah!

Ubiquitous Technology!

I can nearly estimate the creativity or the open-mind-ness of the person in front of me when i hear them say something like this "I think we invented everything! i mean what else could they do?We have all this wireless technology and we have electricity, we went to space.. and a whole bunch of luxuries that are useless anyways...yeah, I think we are done with technology..we reached the limit and we can't do any better"..I met a couple of people who are thinking that way..And I really hope they live long enough to be proven wrong by one invention after another..
People had similar ideas when they first had the steam engine! They were very wrong indeed..

Well, If you think we reached some kind of a climax in inventing things.Please take a look at this video.Then think again.





I Think We Are Just Beginning.

Yaaay!

Its June Already..The reason am excited about June is that first Its gonna be the LAST month in my educational life. Also June happens to be my birth month. and This year i' m turning 21!!

meaning i can go to prison, drink and watch adult movies!Alot of privileges i didnt have in the past and really doesn't add anything anyway :) I really anticipated June for so long now..
I also like summer time in general leaving out the terrible weather..June,specifically , would be a milestone in my life..

P.S: I have absolutely no plans about what i'm going to do after graduation ..So Im not really liking July right now.