A lesson learned over Sham El-Neseem

"The more effort people exert trying to project a certain image, the less this image is reflective of what they truly behold."
-- gjoe.

MultiTasking

dammit

عليا جنيه و ربع و مش فاكرة لمين

Learn Dee..LEARN!

Dragging Myself To Work

I always have initiation issues.Starting any task is always not easy for me. It doesn't matter whether it's a phone call or a presentation that I have to prepare, whether it's reading a book or even organizing my desk. As long as I have the notion of "waraya 7aga a3melha" I always postpone what it is I have to do. It's not that I don't do it eventually, but I don't start doing it until I am really option-less. I know people who think "Start doing what you have to do to get it over with". I don't think that way. The way I think is more like "Why do it now when I can do it afterwards?"

These days specifically, I have a dragging-myself-to-work problem. This is should not be the case since I very much like my new work place. It's quiet, but not boring,I am barely distracted, ,I am very productive and it is 2 minutes away from Cilantro.Why do I dread going to work every morning, I have no idea. But what I am sure of is that I go to work late from 1-2 hours everyday, just because I don't feel like it, and that I will still stay up late in any case..So, "Why go now when I'll finish what it is I have to do anyways?".


Just 2 days ago, I was up and doing some work from 4 am in the morning. When it was time to get ready for work, I got dressed up and then slept on the couch for 1 hour.I woke up, didn't like what I was wearing so I changed. This bought me another 30 minutes. I am totally aware that subconsciously, I did that so that I won't go to work on time.

When my co-worker asked me why was I late, I replied "Ra7et 3allaya nooma".



P.S:You might wonder how do I get away with going late at work.Feen el beeh el modeer? Well, the thing is he told us that there is no "strict" office hours.He doesn't come every day and when he does, it's not before 3. But theoretically speaking, we should come from 9 to 5.

Wondering..

I was wondering; To what extent is a person responsible for the state of things around him? I mean things are not looking good, right?Neither globally nor locally.. But again, what does an "individual" has to do to make things better? How far is one contributing to the well-being of his surrounding environment? Where does someone stop?Is it enough to set a good example? Or do we have to work in groups to set a significant change?How much damage is done to have people who are believers in "hopeless case" and that things would never get better? How much damage is done if we had people who simply chose to shut up about the wrong they see everyday?Is it enough to be a person who is كافي خيره شره?


For example, it gets more crowded everyday; If I bought a new car, won't that have a negative effect on traffic jams?Global warming?But it is more serious than just that.

What my question really is: Individually speaking,How 'significant' a change has to be?

Quitting

Today, I've quit trying. It feels awful.

Zamaan Wana So3'yar

I figured something very very recently: Nothing makes me genuinely content but a revived childhood memory. El7amdolellah, I enjoy one of life's greatest blessings: A happy childhood. Well, as a first child, you get all the attention and all that, your parents always have the highest expectations, which sometimes could turn into a curse. But overall, again, el7amdolellah I had a very nice time being a kiddo!

When I truly recall zaman, with all it's habal, carefree and innocence, it feels like I am little girl back again..it's like all the surrounding dullness and burdens disappear. I could find myself smiling while stuck in traffic, or giggling while a manager gives direct orders of not exceeding a deadline.

I discovered that looking at some of my childhood photos could really lift my spirit up. Which is greatly needed these days!Tab3an if I was flipping through my old photos with my sisters or mom they would have to say the lame-statement "Eh elly 7assalek ya oojy?", and I have to reply in a snobbish attitude "wala 7aga, I turned from a 3ayela into a diva".

That thing on my face? Grown-ups call it Shalfatah, Kids call it Chocolate


So I decided, that every now and then I will share bits of these memories through my humble blog! heeeeh :)

And today I share this:


Zamaaaan wna so3'ayara,I was such a hyperactive kid..and naturally i didn't like bed-time.So my parents invented the "sleeping routine":a game, that they have to go through every night 3ashan at7'emed..wana tab3an amma sadda2at..

kan lazem koll yoom baba yo3od 3ala rokaboh w yemedd eedoh w yestanany fe awel el salah, wana agry men a7'erha w a2olloh "Tesba7 3ala 7'eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa babaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa" in a whale-ish-kinda-way watremy fe 7odnoh! w tab3an 3ashan ana mesh 3ayza anam, I had to repeat it a coupla times, and practice it on mom just to get it right..w marra abbata2 el tempo w marra assar3o 3ashan el ta3'yeer..
My mom had to watch carefully and clap for me as I ran..if she is not looking, then I had to do it again!

You could unmistakably conclude that I have certain illusions that I am the center of the universe until this moment.

Every now and then, my dad jokes that I stopped playing that game. "Battalty tegry 3allaya w te2oleely tesba7 3ala 7'eer ya baba"...
I usually reply by saying, "Tesba7 3ala 7'eer"




I feel SOO much better :)
El7amdolellah!

One lousy movie..

..after another, after another!For 3 consecutive times of movie-goings, I was greatly disappointed..First by There will be blood, then by Geneenet El-Asmak and the least disappointment was Share3 18 because I didn't have any high expectations anyway!

Okay let's talk details..There will be blood felt like a remake of "the good the bad and the ugly"..Not in the plot, but in the pace..It was extremely slow and you feel really disconnected from the people. You could not find any justifications for what they do and why they behave. But I'd have to applause for Daniel's Performance..I haven't seen the other nominated actors but he sure did deserve an academy award.

Geneenet El-Asmak..The movie was also very very slow(slow is in you could spend 3 minutes watching a guy walking in the street, or tying his shoes, or making a cup of tea), but it was kinda new. You feel like the director has a vision and wants to say something..you are just not quite sure what it is!Actually no, it was quite obvious that the movie was talking about fear.And he wants to deliver a message that we as a society are collectively and individually living in fear.Fear from the future, from pain, from loneliness, from rejection, from exposing our real selves, from the government even..At this part, the movie was good at portraying different specs of the society..and what each and everyone is afraid of. But still, he was not able to sell his idea, and it was very symbolic at times to be understood! At many points of the movie, you could just hear the audience make fun of how slow the things are..There is no usual story climax and resolution..I remember quite well when the 2 hours were almost over and the audience felt like "enough already" , yet nothing really dramatic happened, a guy behind us was like "Ana mesh 3aref leeh 7ases enn el film hay7'las 3ala keda" and he was correct! It did end 2 seconds after his prediction.


Share3 18: Okay, it was available fel nady with a 5-pounds ticket and the movie was 75 mins long..you can't really blame me for watching it.
Anyways, I appreciate the attempt of making a "detective" plot and all that, but the director was terrible terrible terrible.The dialog was "rakeek" to the moon and back ..And someone please kill Mays 7amdan in real life..She just gets on my every nerve..Me-2avowara mel a7'er..Dah 3'eer enn the movie was very predictable. You could easily see through it..I need to do some mental math to get my IQ level back to normal.

Feen ayyam el aflam el 7elwa, Braveheart walla The Shawshank Redemption, walla Sleepless in Seattle,walla Pocahontas 7atta..